I have no idea where I am… Ok well I know where I am physically, I’m in Newfoundland, but I don’t know why. And I don’t know where I am in my life. I have found myself in a place unfamiliar to me. A place where everything is nothing and nothing is everything. I am a blank slate and I don’t know what to do with myself. So I decided to write…
School is over for the summer and I don’t know what my educational career looks like in the next few years. I’v looked for a job but have failed in my mission. I came to Newfoundland with a plan and a purpose but that quickly fell apart and my plans dissolved and my reasons went their own way. This year has been full of stress, anxiety and a fight against depression that felt like a losing battle, but I can finally say I have won. But these things have tore down all the plans I had and left me a new way of looking at my world. Everything has changed and my new world doesn’t have a structure yet… It’s waiting to be created; Waiting for my next move.
But I don’t know what it is… I have no logical next step. “The world is my oyster”. I can do, go, see, experience and create as I please. I just need a starting point. A first step to the rest of everything. But I don’t have that. Not today.
I’m writing this post without purpose but I feel as though I need to leave you with something. So how about this?:
Life doesn’t always give you a reset, a blank slate or an opportunity to start over. It’s a rarity and it doesn’t always give you a warning that it’s coming, If often shows up unannounced. But sometimes the things that come unannounced can be the greatest opportunities of life. It can be scary… not knowing what happens next, but don’t let it slip through your fingers. When you find yourself where I have found myself now take that moment to think about what you really want, what will make you happy and what you’ve been missing and only when you have all of your thoughts collected should you proceed. Make something great out of it. Create for yourself what you have always wanted to create.
I’m not sure why I wrote this post I just didn’t know what else to do, so I decided to write…
